Re-reading my post from a couple days ago A Return to Central Oregon and my statement:
“Central Oregon is where I got to be in my first quilt show – the Sisters Outdoor Quilt Show in 2007; and it is where my transition from traditional quilting to experimenting with art/improvisational quilt began.”
made me think about how much my art quilting journey has stalled over the past 7 years. Back in 2019, when I had my first solo show it looks like a very promising journey. Now at times it feels like that journey has ended.
I was able to create my Langston Hughes, Pioneer Poet quilt for a Women of Color Quilting Network (WCQN) show in 2021; and my upcycled denim and home decor fabric quilt What Direction Do I Go? in 2023 (which was rejected from a show I entered).
But that’s been it except for some playing with home decor and clothing scraps a little recently:

It feels like the improvisational and creative magic is gone in relation to “art” quilting.
I remember a time when I wasn’t interested in using quilt patterns, I just wanted to create original pieces.
Currently I primarily crave working from patterns and having direction. However even with using patterns I am not making as many quilts or other sewn projects (like when I was making a lot of bags and other non quilt projects).
I’ve been thinking about this and I just know it has to do with grief and how creativity, quilting and the fabric involved as so much a part of my prior life.
I definitely miss being around the amazing and inspirational art quilting community of Central Oregon.
I definitely miss my life long partner/best friend who was also a quilter (Remembering Terry the Quilting Husband (TTQH)) and all the fun fabric shopping related adventures we used to have. Terry loved dog themed fabric and every time I look at the amazing collection of dog themed fabric in my stash my heart hurts.
Every time I look at my fabric stash I struggle as so much of it is connected to old wonderful memories (and I realize how lucky I am to have had those experiences). Although I’ve paired down my fabric stash, getting rid of fabric that triggers memories is not a solution for me.
Joining local art quilting groups has not been a solution for me either.
I am working on figuring it out and seeing if I can find the passion I once had again. A couple years I even considering completely giving up quilting and just keeping my other crafts. But I know I still have a quilting and perhaps an “art quilting” journey still inside of me.
Thanks for reading my musings, sometimes it just helps to write about these things.
The featured image on this post is from a screen shot of the book Creative Struggle by Gavin Aung Than







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